i dreamt we were getting married and at our wedding i whispered to you and told you to promise me you wouldn’t regret this or change your mind and you whispered back that you never would. and i started crying because i was so happy that none of the pain you caused me before mattered anymore because in the end i had you and that’s all i ever wanted. and then i woke up crying because i don’t have you and i don’t know if i ever will and you’re all i want.
but there’s a side to you that i never knew, never knew
all the things you’d say, they were never true, never true
and the games you play, you would always win, always win
sometimes i wake up by the door
now that you’ve gone, must be waiting for you
even now when it’s already over
i can’t help myself from looking for you
